Idiotic darkie

I had a wierd dream yesterday night. I dreamt that someone bite me on my right leg until the blood was oozing out like a fountain, bleeding profusely. And strangely, when I woke up in the morning, I felt a pinch of painfulness in the area that I was being bitten in my dream. Cool huh... -_-|||

This morning I met an irritating darkie who keeps looking at me on the train. He's a Bungladesh I think.

As usual, I was standing on the linkage between 2 cabins. Initally this idiotic darkie was standing near the window, think he find it straining for his neck, walked over and stood diagonally opposite me, continued to look at me as I was reading Today. I stared hard at him occassionally and he looked away.

Eventually I can't ta han, found a seat to sit down and few minutes later, he was sitting opposite me. What the hell?! Never mind... When I alighted from the train and reached the bottom of the escalator, I still see him on the escalator looking at me. Freak man! If its not for the sake of my image, I'll had pointed my middle finger at him there and then. Wah cow... I look like his mother? Or his lover at his kampong? Or someone who owes him money? Or perhaps he wants to have a copy of the Today that I'm holding, or maybe he thought the envelope I'm holding contains money. To hell with him, I hope I don't see him again.

Next time I should take out my camera phone and start snapping at the people who keeps staring at me =þ Looking for a fight, ain't I?

Going strong

Locked in my world,
Eyes closed,
Music blasted.
Sinking heart,
Recovering soul,
Time needed to heal from head to toe.
Going strong,
Getting tough,
Nothing gonna break me down.
Earth revolves,
Day still pasts,
A fact to face no matter what.

Walking zombie

Having headache. Not enough sleep I guess.
Slept at 3am the night before and 1am yesterday night, waking up at 7am for work. Yawn... Its Friday today. What have I gotta say? Well... Still... Work life sucks! And work life plus daily night life will shorten my life x_x

Think I'm just not that kinda party animal who can play late and still stay alert and fresh the next day. Coz my eyes will be half shut especially after lunch... Sweets and sour plums will be lying right in front of my table waving frantically at me... Occasionally my mind will shut off from the outside world and I'll be in my own dark world with the Z-monsters... And the ringing of the phone sounds just like my alarm clock that wakes me up... =þ

Hell... I'm so sleepy now...

Somebody - Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

Stoning more & more often

Today's Monday.
Felt like the weekends were just a dream, dunno what I've been doing.

I'm in a lost mood now. The feeling is like a cub who've strayed away from its protecting parents - feeling lost, trying desperately to look for the pillar of support. My buddy always ask me to be strong. I think I've been strong enough to be able to make it to this point. All the emotional struggles, its making me weak and training me to be stronger as well.

Been stoning very often nowadays; just staring at a spot but I dun really know what I'm thinking. But by doing that juat makes me feel at ease, its like for that moment I'm in an angelic world of my own, time just freezes and I'll always be in that comfort zone. Freaky behaviour huh?

Dar, time will heal everything ya? Give ourselves a bit more time...

Depeche Mode Rocks !!!

Was supposed to be asleep now coz needa wake up early to go car-mart with my ah-lau tomorrow. But I couldn't get to sleep, maybe too used to sleeping late for the past few weeks. =þ

Anyway, so here I am updating the blog and listening/watching some youtube clips by Depeche Mode. My all time favourite band, Depeche Mode Rawks!!! I can just go gaga whenever I hear their songs being played in pubs/disco. Gonna buy their the Best Of CD which will only be released in November, wondering if it'll be released in Singapore. Can't wait to get my hands on them.

K, think I shall go sleep now, tomorrow will be a busy day.
Depeche Mode Rawks !!!

There's gotta be sunshine after the rain

No matter what happen, there's gotta be sunshine after the rain.
Now I not only see the sunshine, I also see the beautiful rainbow across the sky.
I didn’t have enough sleep yesterday night, but I'm feeling great today coz God did gave me a push as I requested yesterday. After a long time of depressed period, I suddenly felt so light.

Happy or sad, you still gotta pass your day; so choose to live happily. I'm now learning to appreciate life.
Thanks God, thanks angel.

ARGHHHHH....

ARGHHHHHH..........
HELL! HELL!! HELL!!!

WTF... I think all problems will be solved if I'm gone for good...
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.........................

God, pls give me some strength. I'm working hard. Problems gonna be solved soon. I'm picking myself from hell. But seems like you're not on my side.
Pls give me a little push and a bit more time. That's all I ask for.

ARGHHHHHHH......

Dar's back

Boring... Waiting for dar dar to be back. Roller blading today was cancelled coz the floor was wet after the rain.

Sometimes when one is too used to a certain lifestyle, its kinda difficult to switch. Sitting and waiting. Its not a good feeling...

I hate Monday

Work life sucks.

I have piles of paperwork waiting to be checked and file. Anyone can help me? Sigh... Sianz... Think can consider going MOS with Kee every Wed after my dance class to let the hair down. Ladies' night, retro night. Yeah... I like retro... Last week's music was not bad, Kee looked forward to "YMCA" which wasn’t played. Perhaps was played after we left *shrugz*

Arghh... Its Monday, I hate Monday.