I miss me

There's time when I feel so down,
I wished end of the world happens now.
I just wanna be wrapped in a shell,
Or just be alone in some dark hole.
Who can decifer the sadness behind my smile,
Or the loneliness even when friends are around.
Why is the day so gloom when the sun is burning,
Why am I tearing together with the sky when it's raining?
When oh when, will my old self be back.
Please oh please, I really miss the old me.

...

It feels so real as you put your arms around me.
The sense of security and infatuation is so strong as I stand beside your warm body.
I felt butterflies in my tummy like during the sweet courtship.
The feeling of love and being in love which I have long lost that feeling.
Although it was just for a short moment which I woke up from it.
Thank you for appearing and holding me.